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| Back to the basics.
So much has changed; my understanding of His calling in my life broadens more in ways I never thought possible.
It's hard not to look back and hold on to the past; it all seemed so easy "back then"...
But back then is not now. And will never be.
Ultimately, I am not the main character.
And I am satisfied
Even in hard times,
Every day is a good day.
+Michael
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| Whew!
haven't done this in a while: blogging.
anyways, not that anyone here is concerned with the little intricacies of my life. =D
so, i came back and visited DB after a month long of hard-work and whatnot...
well, it wasn't really hard work, but more like slacking off until last minute and SUDDENLY cramming to get things done; yeah, i tend to never learn from certain things.
hopefully, things will turn out to be okay; if not, i'll just have to work harder next quarter [i don't think i'll be able to have time to fool around next qtr... 17 units of class... YIKES]
visiting DB has been such a blessing to me; meeting up with random people and talking to them has been very encouraging.
it's good to get to know and remeet some of your friends from "back then"..
quite interesting to see changes and differences from people you've known from before... and how they've grown since then.
makes me feel much older.
hung out with some of my close buddies on saturday; we jus did what i wanted to do: chill
no planning. no stress. all fun.
for once, i decided to just let go and see how things would turn out; after being such a forward person, after being very indepth with planning and meetings, i simply gave up my inhibitions and watched how things would turn out...
and you know what?
i found that.... things are okay... without my intervention...
granted that God is sovereign in all things, i shouldn't be worried too much about the future; all i can do is fulfill my duties as a student/colleague/buddy/friend/work-out buddy/family/brother and not worry about what the outcome will be.
the world doesn't revolve around YOUU!!! and i'm glad to learn that lesson.
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ANYWAY;
seems like i've been tagged by a buddy of mine to list 16 random things. so here goes:
1) I have had a relationship [bf/gf] before. so don't you all go jumping on me for being "closet-gay" or whatever demeaning choice of words you have for the sad minority of this nation... it's really a pity for them, though i cannot agree with their lifestyle.. :/
2) I've only been a "Christian" since my latter-half of sophomore year [10th grade]. though i've grown up in a church my whole life, i've had enough justifications to avoid Christians and avoid God entirely,.. until that DAY came. [more like DAYS]
3) My number 1 love language is QUALITY TIME. so, for me,... doing face-to-face meetings are quite important to me [and meetings can't be flaky 5 minute acquaintances..] And only off by 2 points, my second love language is PHYSICAL TOUCH. having physical touch doesn't make me any more or less "sexual" as the stereotype would have you think, but we just prefer hugs over gifts. ^^
4) I've been learning how to do latin ballroom since last year; believe me, it's such a chauvinistic form of dance that i can't even care to argue against the "femininity" of dancing. the male or "leading" partner seems to be always in control, always forcing following partner to do what HE wants, when HE wants it, and how long & hard the lady goes. can't get any more manlier than that in a dance besides the horizontal mambo =_= [coff, coff, furbs ;]
5) I sing in showers. i'm quite aware that in showers, people can still hear your voice echo across the entire house/apartment ^^
6) I love listening to Relient K and Waking Ashland. some people find some of their stuff "emo"; i call them being insensitive ;)
7) I know how to play piano since 4th grade. but i've quite piano in 8th grade. and restarted piano in 10th grade and quit in the end of my junior year. when i quit piano on my junior yr, i started guitar and have been continuing.. unfortunately, i took a literal 1 yr break from both instruments, as i've had too many time commitments to manage; thus music fell out of my life.
8) uhm... i've been trying to reintegrate music into my life? well, i'm not as good as i WAS... :< so it's been very humbling to see my little brother surpass the benchmark i've set on the years before...
good ototo!! ^^
9) Speaking of which, i have a younger brother and a baby sister. they are my beloved; as much as i fool around with them, i love them too much for them to know. =D
10) Geez.. running out of ideas. I bought an mp3 player for 20 bux.
11) My cellphone case and accessories are more expensive than my phone.
12) i've always wanted to make a homemade mortar, but too afraid to do so, due to family potentially being harmed by my creations. ;)
13) i had anger issues. they still come sometimes, but i know that i am not the proper instrument in delivering vengeance.
14) i am a psp enthusiast. hand me anything psp-related, and i'll love you in a love that might be hindering to others ;)
speaking of which,
15) I have yet to find out the true meaning of love. I know of it, and i can say i know that i am loved with a love beyond any comprehension. However, to replicate and reproduce that AGAPE love in my life... i don't know if i can do it as 100% as well as the one who loves me infinitely..
all i can do is.. to love people as best as i can... and pray to always surpass that...
~EDIT~
16) ooops. it's 16 random things..
okay. i pray and read the Bible. :D
there.
so... to surpass the person who tagged me, i shall tag the ppl i deem to tag so i can know them!! :D
tag me back if you do this survey, so i can know that you actually pay attention to my posts!! <3
-MK^^
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| "The sun says: Welcome home,
but I'm feeling all alone.
I step outside and
watch the weeds take the garden.
I gave my best,
but sometimes I must confess
My hope runs dry
and I draw lines,
it makes things harder."
To stand up straight... and look alive.
To believe, that this will be my year.
No more looking back; i am no longer afraid of failing.
So i will roll the dice, knowing that He knows
the outcome.
"...when the day breaks
I arise, and try again."
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| yes. i guess i am?
so i get this email saying that i should probably keep my site, or else it will become inactive..
hrm... well, i haven't touched this website at all... and there are better websites for networking [ie. facebook]
however, xanga's always been the best site for seeing blogs, in my opinion... :P
well, i've been busy lately, and haven't had the time or energy to keep up with the blogging life..
i find it funny that people who do post on blogs, complaining on how hard life is and yadaydayaya,... that they waste time on writing explicitly long entries, instead of trying to FIX those problems..
unless those problems.. are too unbearable for the human mind to take alone...
so they comfort themselves in pouring out their agonies on their posts.... hoping someone would listen [it IS public domain, after all ;]
blah. i don't got time to maintain this site.
but oh well!
it's the
s u m m e r !
edit:
just skimming thru past entries bring back so many memories...
perhaps i shall make my contribution to the long emo posts of the centuries very soon :D
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| As the flames dance around and encircles our bodies, we take on our wooden cross of the Holy I Am and walk, resolutely in a direction known only to the Spirit of Truth & Love...
For a time like this, i've been feeling a bit contemplative...
it's nice to have a break, from all this work... and think....
it's good to reflect on the past... and remember what we were before.. and who we are now...
-MK^^
facebook FTW.
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